Dear friend H'chat,

Let me be absolutely frank with you, so please, please do not take me as being rude or crass.

Nonetheless, I would like to point out a few things to you, because [by pre-judging through this letter that you gave me above] I see that you believe in Paul so much, and by the written words above, you do not know, nor understand the ways of Judaism. Or, by what you have written, you have a very minimal amount of understanding of that holy faith. I do not say this lightly my friend; thus, let me reveal this faith to you, the faith which Yehoshua and his hand-picked apostles practiced and observed and taught to others.

Many people think that Yehoshua had to die in order to bring mercy and forgiveness, or - simply put, atonement to humanity. This, is literally - absolutely false.

Before I go on, I am going to say this also: By my mere experience with others, namely those that believe in Jesus - yet, follow the Pauline path vs. Jesus' ways - when I am talking with them about the fundamental truths of biblical Judaism, because these truths are so foreign to them, I have to go great lengths with them to unravel the folly that has been taught to them, either  outright by Paul or by worthless preachers. Thus, for this reason alone, I am just going to lump you into the same boat, so forgive me if you do not belong in this boat. But as stated already, by the words above, it only seems to me through my experiences that you too are on this same forbidden path. Because of these things, I have found that no matter what I do say about the Tanakh and what is written therein, it still remains very foreign to them. Therefore, it bears no relevance because I am always hitting the wall called "grace" that was built by Paul, and canonized by the Catholic Church and others to this day. Thus, I have to unravel many of these doctrines one by one by only using the NT, and on some occasions by the Tanakh when applicable.

Now, let me touch on the things I said in the third small paragraph of this letter.

Many people think that Jesus HAD to die in order for people to receive atonement for their sins. I want to prove this is false by first using the NT and then by using the Tanakh.

In Mark 2 we find a man "sick of the palsy [KJV]." When this man's friends could not get him close to Yehoshua because of the crowds they decided to go through the roof. The first thing Yehoshua said was, "Son, thy sins be forgiven thee." At this the scholars were shocked at such a statement; for they said, "no one can forgive sins, but God alone [paraphrase]." Yehoshua admitted to this fact, but he added that he had "permission [In the Greek: "exousia / εξουσιαν = Mark 2:10]" to do this and to prove he was not lying he gave the people a sign which was that he healed the person. For in biblical Judaism a real prophet is NOT known because a person simply says, "I am a prophet." Because if that were the case many people could be prophets. Rather, when a true prophet came on the scene he gave a sign to the people so that the people would know that he was truly sent by heaven. For according to the torah, every single word that a prophet shall utter must be fully obeyed, you must not turn to the right or to the left. Thus, men are to greatly fear the LORD's prophet. So, with this one story we see that this man was given forgiveness of all his sins without Jesus ever dying.

Let us move on to the next example I can give. When the crowds went out to John the baptist in the wilderness what did he say? He said, "Bring forth therefore fruits worthy of repentance, and begin not to say within yourselves, We have Abraham to [our] father." What was he saying here?

He was saying that "repentance means nothing if you never convert or never change your course or direction." It's like saying sorry to someone about something, yet, you keep on doing those things that offend that person. If this were the case your sorries would mean absolutely nothing. Thus, when the people repented before John, they were forgiven. Now here is more proof that the people that visited John were forgiven even while Jesus was in their midst and this was, obviously, long before his crucifixion, for this is what Yehoshua said about this:

Jesus replied, “I will also ask you one question. If you answer me, I will tell you by what authority I am doing these things. John's baptism–where did it come from? Was it from heaven, or from men?” They discussed it among themselves and said, “If we say, ‘From heaven,’ he will ask, ‘Then why didn't you believe him?’ But if we say, ‘From men’–we are afraid of the people, for they all hold that John was a prophet.” So they answered Jesus, “We don't know.” Then he said, “Neither will I tell you by what authority I am doing these things. “What do you think? There was a man who had two sons. He went to the first and said, ‘Son, go and work today in the vineyard.’ ‘I will not,’ he answered, but later he changed his mind and went. Then the father went to the other son and said the same thing. He answered, ‘I will, sir,’ but he did not go. Which of the two did what his father wanted?” “The first,” they answered. Jesus said to them, “I tell you the truth, the tax collectors and the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you. For John came to you to show you the way of righteousness, and you did not believe him, but the tax collectors and the prostitutes did. And even after you saw this, you did not repent and believe him (Matthew 21)."

Thus, here we see Yehoshua admitting that these people's sins were, in fact, forgiven. Thus, proving once again that Jesus did not have to die in order for people to have their sins forgiven.

The Pharisees represented the second son, whereas the tax collectors and prostitutes represented the first son, because that son first said "no," but later did what was asked of him. For the prostitutes walked in the ways of darkness first, but then repented and did the Lord's torah, as taught by this prophet named John. For Yehoshua says, "...for John came to you to show you the way of righteousness."

Now to bring you into the Tanakh, the Tanakh says this in Numbers 15 regarding sins that are awful enough to deserve an actual sacrifice, for not all sins resulted in that as sooo many so- called "Christians" believe. Here is the passage:

Numbers 15:27-28

"if just one person sins unintentionally, he must bring a year-old female goat for a sin offering. The priest is to make atonement before the Lord for the one who erred by sinning unintentionally, and when atonement has been made for him, he will be forgiven."

Thus, if Yehowah says that this person is "forgiven" then that person is truly forgiven. This, by

the way, outright contradicts Hebrews 10:11 that says, "Day after day every priest stands and performs his religious duties; again and again he offers the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins."

By the mere wording of certain passages in the book of Hebrews and what is said in the farewell address at the end of the book, we see that it was written by a disciple of Paul and one that was with him in his missions. It was not by Paul himself, however, because he is always quick to point out that he is the author of his letters. Nor was it written by Timothy, because it says in Heb 13:23, "Take notice that our brother Timothy has been released, with whom, if he comes soon, I will see you."  Timothy, Paul, Silas, Titus, Apollos (who could not read) and several others were all companions. Whoever the author was, it is clear that he knew quite a bit of the Temple service, making it clear he was an Israelite. Nonetheless, he was in error.

Moving on to my next point:

Because I have already displayed Paul as a hypocrite in my former papers; yet, you do not want to believe it, it is hard for me - no matter what evidence I bring up - to knock down this false "grace" wall.

What Paul has in error in his Jewish theology - and you do as well, my friend because of your strong belief in Paul - is this: A man is ONLY saved by performing the commandments and statutes of heaven. For, as mentioned, Jesus ONLY taught that a man shall be given salvation if he should keep the torah, as well as John the baptist and the rest of the prophets, including John the apostle.

For this is what John says in Revelation 14:12, "Here is the perseverance of the saints who keep the commandments of God and their faith in Jesus" and in Rev 22:14, "Blessed [are] they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city." Again, this is what John says in his letters, "He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him (1 John 2:14)."

Look, if I am going 55 MPH or 55 KPH in a 35 speed zone - Is a police man going to site me for stealing? Or, for murder, kidnapping, abortion, having unjust weights or......? No! What I am guilty of is the only thing I am getting a ticket over. Thus, I only need to repent of the sin I committed, not over the 99% of the other commandments that I am keeping. The difference between one that is torah-observant and those that are not, is this: I might sin one time throughout the entire day over something that is miniscule, because I am actually living a life of holiness and I am constantly striving for that type of walk. Something miniscule, by the way, is nothing major, but something like this: If I am wearing pants that have tassels on each corner (Numbers 15:38) out in the public and for some reason as I am doing something, one of those tassels rips off, I am sinning. But, this is obviously not a deliberate act. Thus, I only need to repent over that one thing out 2,000 plus commandments. Thus, I am totally holy and righteous and, thus, saved. Making sure I repented over the accident and quickly reattaching the tassel. Thus, I am constantly doing 100% of the commandments with an occasional dip to the 99.99% level once in awhile. Whereas the person that believes in "grace" does not even care to learn the law, let alone keep it; because he simply does not think he needs to learn, nor keep the commandments, for he thinks the Law has been abolished. This applies to someone such as yourself, because of your faith and belief in Ephesians 2 and other Pauline doctrines and passages. Not withstanding, such a person might keep some of those commandments by either pure accident or because he does not want to be a hard criminal. However, to this person's surprise, there are more commandments in the torah that far exceed those that have to do with hard crimes. These commandments deal with all aspects of life, from farming; to sex and marital life; to house building; to business and the trading of goods; to rituals; offerings and holidays; to whatever else. Thus, if such a person is only doing about 90 of those 2,000 plus commandments, it is very clear that this person is a sinner and totally disobedient. A person cannot be deliberately transgressing the big to medium commandments and then think they are "saved."

In truth, most "grace-ers" don't realize, or cannot discern, that they are full of sin and guilt. This is because they are totally unaware of the commandments they are transgressing. So, what is the result? Sinners [regardless of what faith, race, stripe or creed] will not enter the kingdom of the moshiach. In fact, sinners have never been saved, nor shall ever be saved. Sinners were never given personal covenants from Yehowah, but only those that kept the precepts and commandments of the Torah. Even in Psalm 119:155 it says this, "Salvation [is] far from the wicked: for they seek not thy statutes."

Remember, Jesus just said that the tax collectors and the prostitutes had forsaken their ways and started observing the torah. THEREFORE, they were entering the kingdom before the Pharisees and scholars of the torah, because they were keeping the commandments written therein, unlike the scholars that were merely teaching the torah. Thus, if Yehoshua said they were entering, they were truly entering. For the moshiach must not ever lie.

My dear friend, I keep the torah all of the time. So please do not think "it is impossible" to keep as so many "grace" preachers think and teach. For why in the world would the God of heaven make humanity the way He did, and then give him a law code, and command him to keep it - if he were not able to keep it? All manner of law, whether earthly or heavenly can be kept, whether I feel like doing them is a different story. In truth, if I sin in one regard I repent in that one regard. I do not need to repent over things I am not guilty of. Why would you repent for murder if you never committed murder; or kidnapping or....

Here are some of the things I ask people right from the "get-go" to see whether or not they understand what they are reading in the Tanakh:

a) Do you keep the Jewish seventh day sabbath from sundown to sundown?

b) Do you have idols or icons in your home - anywhere - even in any encyclopedias regarding

   Zeus, Baal, Apollo and.....?

c) Do you bring the newspaper that has horoscopes into your home?

d) Do you tithe to the Levites in Jerusalem, or to a church which is forbidden?

e) Do you eat unkosher food?

f) Do you use the computer during the sabbath; Or, use any utilities during the this time? Since

  one must not conduct any form of business during the shabath (Amos 8:5 & Neh 10:31).

g) Do you watch sports or play them?

h) Do you watch movies?

i) Do you pay attention to women that wear non-modest clothes - from the neck to the knee?

j) Do you wear the tefillin [the phylacteries we see Jesus and the Pharisees wearing in Matthew

   23:5. Jesus simply rebuked the Pharisees for wearing their's too "broad."]?

k) Do you eat strictly organic?

l) Do you use medicine, or herbs for health? Do you truly understand the term, "man does not live

  by bread alone, but on every word the proceedeth from the mouth of HaShem?"

These are just some of the commandments that "grace-ers" break, my friend. For they do not know the law of heaven, nor care to learn it.

Furthermore, to prove once again that what you have written is in error, did you forget about Elijah and Enoch? Did someone die for them? No. Yet, how is it that they entered into the kingdom before the very judgment? Thus, you can be holy and righteous without Yehoshua ever coming down from the heavens, unlike what Paul taught and his friend that wrote the book of Hebrews.

Let me point out one more thing, Yehoshua said this in Matthew 13:17, "For I tell you the truth, many prophets and righteous men longed to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear it."

Thus saying, if the moshiach - the very one that will judge humanity - just said that "many" people were righteous, they are then truly righteous, for he did not lie - my friend. Thus, righteousness is obtainable through the Torah, and can ONLY be obtained through the Torah, and not just by acknowledging that Yehoshua is the one that Moshe [Moses] prophesied about; being the promised prophet from "among our brethren," as Paul erroneously led people to believe through his teachings. Remember, the torah teaches that a person must follow and obey all of the words of Moses. This included that you must follow and obey the one that comes after him, that being Yehoshua, the promised prophet of Deut 18. Thus, Moses' words were never annulled, because they included that you follow Yehoshua's words.

Touching Matthew 5:17, for some reason many people think that "fulfilled" means "abolish." Such people have poor reading comprehension, for Yehoshua said, "DO NOT THINK that I have come to abolish the torah or the Prophets, I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them."

Let me put this in another way, from a Jewish point of view with the rich understanding of what the moshiach of Judaism must do:

DO NOT THINK that I have come to abolish the torah or the Prophets, I have not come to abolish them but to bring into fruition all the appropriate prophecies written therein."

The reason I have "appropriate" is that not all the prophecies that are found in the Torah deal with his first coming. For some of them deal with his millennial reign and beyond that time.

Again, like I said before, the very son of the living God - not what any other man said either - told a man that if he wants to enter into life - he MUST obey all of the commandments. That was Yehoshua's blunt answer to the rich man, the other part of his conversation with him is irrelevant to us, because we are not beholding the very son of the living God and being tested by him. This story is found in Matthew 19:17.

In Romans 3, Paul takes the words of the Psalms, of Solomon and several others, out of context. For example, Solomon did not say in Ecc 7:20, "If you sin just one time - this renders you lost forever and ever and ever." He did not say this at all. What he said was that "there is not a man on earth that has always been faultless." This is because all have transgressed at least one commandment at one point in their life, and if not yet, they will. That is all that Solomon said, nothing more, my friend. Many times Paul is in error when quoting the Tanakh. I am actually surprised in this, because he was a Pharisee.

Here is what Ecc 7:20 says, "Indeed, there is not a righteous man on earth who faultlessly does that which is good, yet never sins."

Here we see that Solomon is simply talking about the righteous man's continual integrity, not his salvation. Again, he is talking about a righteous man, not those that do not care about the Torah, or sinners.

Let's also look at Psalm 14 in which Paul only quotes in part. By doing such, Paul is trying to sound educated to the Romans who don't know the Tanakh. For they were, in fact, very ignorant of the things that are written in the Tanakh, maybe not as a whole, but in a great percentage. Here is what Paul quotes in Psalm 14, "None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands, no one seeks for God. All have turned aside, together they have gone wrong; no one does good, not even one (Romans 3:10-12)." By quoting only this, in the context of what Paul is saying vs. the Tanakh, he makes it sound as if no one was righteous, including the prophet and psalmist that wrote the psalm. Paul does this to plead his case to those that are uneducated in the Tanakh. In truth, however, the holy psalmist is not referring to Israelites, but the pagans of the surrounding nations, for this is what the psalmist writes after this particular quote, "Do all the workers of wickedness not know, Who eat up my people {as} they eat bread, {And} do not call upon the Lord? There they are in great dread, For God is with the righteous generation. " Please read Psalm 14 in its entirety and you will see that the Psalmist is not referring to Israelites, but the people that are lost by not seeking after the God of heaven, nor after His precepts.

When Paul writes in Romans 3:20, "For by works of the law no human being will be justified in His sight, since through the law comes knowledge of sin." He, again, deliberately distorts the true message, and then only partially tells the truth in order to push his agenda to uneducated Romans, that agenda being grace. In truth, while it is true that the law does show what sin is, he deliberately fails to mention what else it shows, it shows that obedience to those laws keeps you free from sin; thus, making you sinless and guiltless. For the commandments are the very path of righteousness. That being said, those that do not keep this path are automatically sinners and transgressors. The truth of the matter is this: the Law is the very character of Yehowah, for it displays what He loves and hates. It also displays that those that perform its statutes make themselves holy, righteous and upright before Yehowah, and so become His friends, as Abraham, Moses, Elijah, Enoch, Noah and many others were and still are His friends. These people will and shall enter into the kingdom of the messiah.

Let me make another point, what does Yehoshua say to Nathaneal when he first sees him? Let's look at the story:

"Philip findeth Nathanael, and saith unto him, We have found him, of whom Moses in the law, and the prophets, did write, Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph. And Nathanael said unto him, Can there any good thing come out of Nazareth? Philip saith unto him, Come and see. Jesus saw Nathanael coming to him, and saith of him, Behold an Israelite indeed, in whom is no guile! Nathanael saith unto him, Whence knowest thou me? Jesus answered and said unto him, Before that Philip called thee, when thou wast under the fig tree, I saw thee. Nathanael answered and saith unto him, Rabbi, thou art the son of God; thou art the King of Israel."

You see how Nathaneal in his righteousness condemns the whole town of Nazareth? Yet, Philip mentions, nonetheless, that there is one man...... come and see him. And when Yehoshua sees Nathaneal, he praises him for his righteousness. Therefore, if the very judge praised him, then he truly is righteous. Remember, Jesus did not come for people like this, such as Nathaneal, as he said, "I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."

Again, reread the whole entire chapter of Matthew 5. All throughout this chapter, Yehoshua is foretelling what will take place on the day of judgment, which is long after the day of his death and resurrection. He is constantly telling people that 'you must be holy and righteous and keep the Law/all of the torah.' Therefore, this contradicts ALL of the writings of Paul. In truth, if you were to rip out all of Paul's writings and simply read the Gospels you will clearly see that Jesus only taught the things that every other prophet preached that proceeded him.

An example of what I mean is this: look at the whole entire chapter of Ezekiel 18 while you are at it. For in this chapter Ezekiel says that Yehowah will forgive anyone that turns from their wickedness and finally does that which is right and holy, which only comes by observing the Torah as Ezekiel said.

Another thing that you must remember is this: John the Baptist was Yehoshua's contemporary and a prophet that lived at the same time. He never once preached that "the one that comes after me will abolish the torah." Nor, "When the messiah is revealed, who now stands in your midst, he will activate a new liberal path for your salvation, that will be strictly based on your acknowledgment of who he is."

NO!!! In truth, this is what is said about what he said, "In those days came John the Baptist, preaching in the wilderness of Judaea, And saying, Repent ye: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand. Then went out to him Jerusalem, and all Judaea, and all the region round about Jordan, And were baptized of him in Jordan, confessing their sins...... Bring forth therefore fruits meet for repentance: And think not to say within yourselves, We have Abraham to [our] father: for I say unto you, that God is able of these stones to raise up children unto Abraham. And now also the axe is laid unto the root of the trees: therefore every tree which bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire...... he that cometh after me is mightier than I..... Whose fan [is] in his hand, and he will throughly purge his floor, and gather his wheat into the garner; but he will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire."

Then the story continues by saying, "Jesus.... departed into Galilee.... From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand."

Thus, the people had two mighty prophets at the same time that preached the exact same thing, being: "say sorry about your disobedience to the holy laws of heaven, and start obeying them for the kingdom of HaShem is at hand, and those that do not work righteousness shall be thrown into unquenchable fire, but the holy He shall take for Himself."

Let me tack a few more things to this. What does Isaiah 56 say? Let me quote it for you:

"the sons of the stranger, that join themselves to the LORD, to serve him, and to love the name of the LORD, to be his servants, every one that keepeth the sabbath from polluting it, and taketh hold of my covenant [which is the whole Torah, not just a few things of it as what James and the council of Acts 15 thought]; Even them will I bring to my holy mountain, and make them joyful in my house of prayer: their burnt offerings and their sacrifices [shall be] accepted upon mine altar; for mine house shall be called an house of prayer for all people."

Also, the torah says this in Exodus when the Israelites left Egypt, "And a mixed multitude went up also with them [Ex 12:38]." Then the torah goes on to say in Numbers 15, "One law and one manner shall be for you, and for the stranger that sojourneth with you."

Again, this is what the holy prophet said in the name of Yehowah and not of himself, "And it [the torah] shall be our righteousness, if we observe to do all these commandments before the LORD our God, as he hath commanded us (Deut 6:25)."

Therefore, my dear friend, Paul is highly in error. When Paul quotes the things he does in Romans 3, he is taking the words of the prophets out of context. In one quote he is quoting Psalm 14. Well, if you read that Psalm in its context you can clearly see that David is not even talking about Israelites, but Gentiles. Thus, as a whole - non-Israelites don't seek after that which is good, because they do not know the ways of HaShem. One of those reasons is because the people of other nations worshiped wood and stone [and etc] idols or images which can neither save, nor deliver.

Again, reread Matthew 5 and see that he is referring to the obedience to the Torah, and that it shall not be abolished, and that in the far-off future, on the day of judgment, the messiah will judge all men by the very law of Yehowah which was given at Mt Sinai, and the additional laws that were given by the other prophets in their generation.

I am not the one that mentioned this non-sense, but James and the apostles did in Acts 15. James does it again in Acts 21, for this is what is written there:

COMMENT: Obviously, here we can see that James did not know what Paul taught in foreign countries. Thus, Paul obviously deceived James by going along with what James recommended.

Poor James, he and the other apostles were in error when it came to the Gentiles. Thus, those Gentiles that abided by this awful ruling are lost, and even more so if they should follow Paul's hell-binding preaching! That is unless the converted Pharisees reached them as was the case with the people of 'Galatia.' For this is why Paul wrote to them and why he said, "who has bewitched you?" in Gal. 3:1. Thus, on the Gentile side of things vs. the Jewish side, when the council in Acts 15 took place the 'church' fell that day from the truth.

Paul, on the other hand, is more liberal than this council for he himself does not even keep the torah as I pointed out already. Likewise, he preaches that no one needs to keep the Torah, by the proof that is said in "Galatians" as a whole, and by what is bluntly said in "Eph 2."

I laugh at the fact that so many messianics preach that Paul kept the Torah. "Did he?" I ask. Can someone be truly keeping the torah if he does not go up to Jerusalem for 3 years, and again for 14 years, to his own admission in Gal 1:18 and in 2:1. For an Israelite must go to the Temple of HaShem three times a year to celebrate the three annual feasts. Again, can a truly torah-observant person tell others it is Okay to eat food that been sacrificed to idols? For Paul preaches in 1 Cor 8 & 10, which also shows he did not even abide by these four little rules, even though he is the one that gave the people of Antioch the letter from James and the church in Jerusalem. Did you know that in Revelation 2:12-16, we see Yehoshua condemning such people? For this is what John says, "And to the angel of the church in Pergamos write.......I have a few things against thee, because thou hast there them that hold the doctrine of Balaam, who taught Balac to cast a stumbling block before the children of Israel, to eat things sacrificed unto idols........Repent."

Again, Revelation also says this, "unto the angel of the church in Thyatira write.....I have a few things against thee, because thou sufferest that woman Jezebel, which calleth herself a prophetess, to teach and to seduce my servants to......eat things sacrificed unto idols...... I will cast..... them that commit adultery with her into great tribulation, except they repent of their deeds [Rev 2:18-22)."

THEREFORE, my dear friend, tear out ALL of Paul's writings and consider the council formulated in Acts 15 and 21 bogus. It was the converted Pharisees that held on to the truth of what Yehoshua and the other prophets taught.

Remember, in Acts 15:25 it says this, "it seemed good." Meaning, they took a calculated guess, just like Joshua did in Joshua 9 with the people of Gibeon. Please read it.

Well, that's it for now, please write back if you have any more questions. Please notice that this paper is a real bible study, not something where I pick and choose what I want. Remember also, the people of that time only had the Tanakh, not the writings of the apostles, nor of Paul. Thus, treat yourself as if you lived back at that time and weigh whether or not what I am saying to you is only the truth, my friend.

It's time for all of humanity to do some real studying for everyone's salvation is on the line.

Literally - "love" forever

Mare-ga'al

Answer by: Mare-ga'al Ben Yaakov

A Conversation Between Mare-ga'al           and Haverchat

From

Haverchat Writes:

Good evening Mare-ga'al, I followed the link and found it very interesting! So, if you are not saved by grace then how are you saved? If you are saved by works of the Law, you are not saved. Galatians 2:15,16. I know you think Paul was a hypocrite, but he has a point.

You can only be saved through the Law if you haven't broken the Law. In Romans 3:10-18 Paul lists a whole swag of Old Testament texts that indicate that we have ALL sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

There is only One person who kept the Law perfectly, it is through His righteousness that we obtain righteousness. It is attributed to us as a free gift.

You mentioned that Gentiles only have to keep 4 parts of the Law whilst the Jews are required to keep it all. I thought we were all equal before God. Doesn't seem fair if in judgment if I get off lightly, but Jews get a tougher call!

As you say Judaism is the basis of Christianity. Jesus was a Jew, His disciples were Jews and Gentiles have been grafted in as heirs to the promise.

My dear friend I think that you are being very hard on yourself and that you seem to have missed the joy of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

May God's Blessings be with you,

H'chat.

As you write, "You mentioned that Gentiles only have to keep 4 parts of the Law whilst the Jews are required to keep it all. I thought we were all equal before God. Doesn't seem fair if in judgment if I get off lightly, but Jews get a tougher call!

"And the [day] following Paul went in with us unto James; and all the elders were present. 

And when he had saluted them, he declared particularly what things God had wrought among the Gentiles by his ministry. And when they heard [it], they glorified the Lord, and said unto him, Thou seest, brother, how many thousands of Jews there are which believe; and they are all zealous of the law:  And they are informed of thee, that thou teachest all the Jews which are among the Gentiles to forsake Moses, saying that they ought not to circumcise [their] children, neither to walk after the customs. What is it therefore? the multitude must needs come together: for they will hear that thou art come.  Do therefore this that we say to thee: We have four men which have a vow on them; Them take, and purify thyself with them, and be at charges with them, that they may shave [their] heads: and all may know that those things, whereof they were informed concerning thee, are nothing; but [that] thou thyself also walkest orderly, and keepest the law.

As touching the Gentiles which believe, we have written [and] concluded that they observe no such thing, save only that they keep themselves from [things] offered to idols, and from blood, and from strangled, and from fornication. 

περι δε των πεπιστευκοτων εθνων ημεις επεστειλαμεν κριναντες μηδεν τοιουτον τηρειν αυτους ει μη φυλασσεσθαι αυτους το τε ειδωλοθυτον και το αιμα και πνικτον και πορνειαν

For a list of some of the Contradictions between Paul and the Tanakh, as well as Jesus and the other apostles

Please visit all of HeShallGovern.Com

Just an example - not saying you are breaking any of these things. I will not pre-judge. But I will fulfill Prov 27:17, "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."